How do you like our Christmas tree? We live such an unconventional life that I decided to have an unconventional tree! In honor of beautiful women everywhere (including the readers of this blog!) we have a beautiful woman Christmas tree with a little slinky dress that actually fits me! Never in my life did I ever think I would wear something this clingy or sexy, but I have! (Although the honest truth is that it really looks better on the mannequin!) Why not have a little fun in life?
This will be my fourth Christmas after being sleeved, and even though I have to watch what I eat so I don’t gain weight, I now feel like a “normal weight” person. The sleeve has allowed me to figure out how to do that, even during the holidays. I say “normal weight” because according to the powers that be, I am not morbidly obese, obese, or even overweight any more, but I’m not thin either. I’m just a normal-weight person trying to stay healthy every day without obsessing about calories or carbs, or exercising like a crazy person, or worse, letting it dominate my thoughts and energy. I do consider calories and carbs, and I exercise regularly, but it’s not controlling my life anymore. I don’t feel guilty when I don’t eat perfectly and that works for me.
Having said that, my hip hurts, dammit! I don’t know exactly what the problem is but it has bothered me for years — pre-sleeve in fact. I probably did so much damage to it when I was 200+ lbs that I’m still suffering from it. It’s hard to diagnose and I really don’t know what brings on the pain, but at the moment I am not able to exercise and it is really painful when I go to bed. So for those of you who are young and considering this surgery, do it now before you screw up your joints. How I wish weight loss surgery had been available when I was younger, but then I probably would have lived a much different life, and as I said, at this time in my life I have no complaints. OK, my hip is a complaint, but I’ll get that figured out.
Three years after being sleeved I finally cleaned out my closet completely the other day and disposed of the last few big clothes I had — there were a few really nice pieces and I had a hard time getting rid of them. But after seeing them taking up space and realizing that I would never wear them, I decided it was time. Living here in Europe, I have no fat friends to give them to, so off they went to the Netherlands version of the Salvation Army! I now know I am not going back to those large sizes no matter what.